I first met Casey at the climbing gym in 2011. He liked to tell people I picked him up on the bouldering wall with a one-liner like, “You come here often?” It’s not that far off from the truth! We started climbing regularly, indoor and outdoor, and quickly developed a strong “bromance”. The majority of our time together was spent climbing or at one of Nashville’s many two-for-one locals. I don’t even like beer, but I liked hanging out with Casey. The last time I saw him was actually at Mafioza’s. We split a two-for-one Crispin.
Casey was an encouraging friend through some tumultuous struggles I had winning over my in-laws. I don’t know how many of those beers and climbs actually were therapy sessions for me. I loved the guy like a brother. I remember how excited he was when I asked him to be a groomsman in my wedding. That memory was confirmed this week as my other groomsmen told me stories about how genuinely and emotionally invested he was on that day. I remember he ran out and picked up Local Taco for all the guys to eat, and even crammed his ironing board into his car so he could touch up all of our clothes prior to the ceremony. A picture of Casey ironing is one of my favorites from the wedding. My wife holds on to a member of Casey standing behind me in the ceremony crying as we exchanged our vows. That is the Casey we remember. That was my friend.
I was saddened when he moved away a year ago, and elated when he called to tell me he had returned to Nashville. We spent two different occasions catching up when he got back, and two more phone calls before he passed. I don’t think words can capture how much I miss my friend. I so desperately wish I could speak with him one more time. I wish we had shared as deep of a spiritual bond as we did recreational and relational. I wish he had let me help him. My soul is raging against the dying of his light.
I recall Casey telling me about a paper he wrote on spiritual imagery in Amos Lee’s music. I believe the focus of the paper was on the “Mission Bell” album. Amos Lee writes a great deal about love and loss, so it seems fitting to share the first stanza from the opening song on the album, “El Camino”:
Well all my friends treated me so well
You know I'm headed out to that Mission Bell
Gonna wash my soul, gonna get it clean
Heading down the border road called the El Camino